…..ohhhh, Mama said.
Y’all, I did not think we were going to make it out alive yesterday. Whew.
The day started like this,
and ended the same way.
When I signed up to be a Mom, I knew it would be hard.
I will even venture to say that it was probably the hardest day I’ve had as a Mom, so far.
Sure, there were many hard days when she was fresh out of the womb. Breastfeeding was no easy trick, and then there was the whole nerve damage thing. Chris’ also had a death in his family during those first few weeks, but yesterday, whew, that was a different kind of hard.
We like to go for a walk in the morning; I think it helps to wind her down, and relax a little bit before she lays down for a nap. Well, yesterday was no different. We went for a walk around the neighborhood, she fell asleep, I moved her to the crib. Silence. then WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH… and it didn’t stop for the rest of the day.
I had work that needed to get done, but she wouldn’t let me put her down. So, I didn’t work. I held her. I tried really hard to just appreciate that I have the ability to stay home with her. I tried to appreciate that she wanted to be close to me, but man, it was hard.
I was so desperate to get her down for a nap, I put her in the Tula, and walked on the treadmill. She fell asleep after 3 minutes of walking, but the transfer to her crib was unsuccessful.. more crying.
I called Chris at 3 to find out when he was going to be headed home – knowing full well that he would be working late.
During a whiny text to Jenny, she suggested baby einstein. Oh, duh. Why didn’t I think of that? I turned baby einstein on, and Paisley played on the floor for about 20 minutes while I made a few phone calls from work.
Then, I attempted to get her back down for a nap. I’m sure you don’t need me to tell you this, but that didn’t end well. I finally gave up, loaded Paisley in the truck, and headed to starbucks. She fell asleep before we were even out of our neighborhood, but it was short lived. She woke up as soon as we got to starbucks, which means I did not get to enjoy my chai tea in silence.
Chris got home around 6, I threw Paisley at him, changed into running clothes, and ran out the door.
Sweet sweet running! No matter that it was a million degrees out. Didn’t care. I needed 30 minutes.
Since Paisley was born I’ve been sticking to the roads behind my house because they are somewhat safer (not really). But I don’t like to venture out on the main road much because there is a lot of traffic. Yesterday I gave no craps. It was later in the day, so the traffic had already gone through. I ran.
and man, did it feel good.
I haven’t run 3 miles in….months.
3 mi, 28:40, 9:32avg