After my disastrous almost 11 miles, but not quite run a 2 weeks ago, I started contemplating dropping out of The Celebration Half. It wouldn’t be the first time I DNS. There is one other half that I registered for (way in advance) but never made it to the starting line. (i think). I actually can’t remember – and that in it self seems totally ridiculous. How in the world can I not remember if I didn’t run a race I had registered for.
Two Words: Mom Brain.
When I got home from that run, I mentioned to Chris that I didn’t think I could run Celebration. He said I could. So, I just ended the conversation. I was frustrated with the run, and I wasn’t ready to talk about the reasons why I didn’t think I could.
Fast forward to this past week. I had planned on running 12 miles this past Saturday. Then Paisley was diagnosed with RSV, and then I caught the plague from her. She’s waking up at ridiculous hours, which means I’m up at ridiculous hours. So, I decided there was no way I could run a successful 12 miles. I needed the run to be successful.
I decided I was done. The race is in 3 weeks. That leave us 1.5 weeks before we should start to taper. You can’t taper when you are barely running to begin with.
My head & heart just aren’t in it. I talked to Chris again, and he agreed that it sounded like not running was the best plan.
It’s not worth the risk of getting injured. I’m already back to wearing KT tape for anything over 4 miles. Running 13 miles, on very untrained legs is just dumb. It’s not for me.
Thankfully the Celebration allows bib transfers, so I’m not out any money. My bib has been transferred, and I’m completely at peace with this.
No regrets.
This was just not my race. I just couldn’t fit the training into my life.. and I’m okay with that.
I get so sick & tired of seeing all this “no excuses.” “if you want it bad enough…. “ blah blah blah.
That’s totally not true. I will not workout while my daughter sits on the floor and cries for me. It’s not THAT important. I’m so tired of the mom shaming…
LOL.. Okay, I need to stop. I’m about to go off on a tangent here.. what I really need to do is go to bed. Paisley was up at 4am.. for the day. ZzzzzZzzzzzZzzzzzzzzzz so sleepy.